Making Love with Both Hands
Bentrice Jusu
Making Love with Both Hands
I have been a struggling artist since the age of 4. From innocently doodling on the living room walls to eventually creating murals on the walls of my bedroom. That was my sub-conscious attempt to beautify my ugly home, all the while crying both in my mind and alone in my room as I created. Art was my therapist, especially as I mastered the art of mask-making. In school and in the community, I was the leader of virtually everything. Advocating for my peers in the board of education, being a teen representative in the Government Gang task force, President of the Student body and a dozen more duties were the coats of paint that I added habitually onto the mask to cover what was really going on with me. I served as the leader for my community, but wanted badly to get out of my familial turmoil. Where I live, especially in my home, you have to mask your issues to not seem weak. You must cry alone and deal with your emotions another time because there are bigger issues to worry about like, having food to eat, the electricity being turned off, and our home being foreclosed. Although those issues with my family still exist, I have finally “gotten out”, free of stress, alleviated with optimism, and no longer burdened by hopeless restraints.
I will stop at nothing to create a habitat of tranquility in such communities where expression is suffocated. Our youth need an outlet through which they can exhaust internal feelings. With art, as with my heart and my willingness to learn more, there are no parameters. My career plan started at age four when I fell in love with the Arts. I have a resilient will to pay this passion forward; to provide the youth of Trenton with a chance to explore unwarranted areas and pull out exuberant discoveries. This journey of mine started with a paintbrush in my living room, and will move to paint my community with vibrancy and a new joie de vivre for every soul in Trenton by providing what I love most for whom I am most passionate: the youth.







